By "Pogues" ~ One of the most amazing lyrics I have ever come across!

I just want to see you 

When you're all alone 

I just want to catch you if I can 

I just want to be there 

When the morning light explodes 

On your face it radiates 

I can't escape 

I love you 'till the end 

I just want to tell you nothing 

You don't want to hear 

All I want is for you to say 

Why don't you just take me 

Where I've never been before 

I know you want to hear me 

Catch my breath 

I love you 'till the end 

I just want to be there 

When we're caught in the rain 

I just want to see you laugh not cry 

I just want to feel you 

When the night puts on it's cloak 

I'm lost for words don't tell me 

All I can say 

I love you 'till the end

Unnamed !!!

I don't know what and why...

I don't even know when and how...

But hey, I know whom it is for...

and I know to whom I'm for...

So many questions...

unasked and unanswered it remains...

although I speak less and act dumb,

but you are the one...

for whom my heart got stuck... 

I follow you,

follow you throughout the day...

to watch all your activities...

specially your shiny smile...

no matter what, I will be me

me, who loves someone

pretends to be friends...

but has lost his heart for the one...

Even though I'm writing it...

You shouldn't have a read...

Even if you already had...

You shouldn't act accordingly...

I'm shy...I'm dumb

Don't know why but I act so stupid...

To be with you...I can bet my life

And to be without you...I will merely choose to die...!!!

< You steal my heartbeat >

With your smile...

That shiny glimpse of yours...

My morning awaits just one look...

I count seconds...

The moments of your absence...

But feels like I'm with you...

My demands are high...

Demands your stay on my mind...

Not for a moment, but till I breathe...

You speak much...

I sound a bit low...

Not that I'm depressed, 

But I'm too happy to express...

When I'm silent...

I want to hear only you...

May be you're unaware of this, 

But I'm being honest as per your wish...

You say you love to talk...

My heart says I love to hear...

Coz when I speak, 

I hide my feels...

Not that I'm being a liar to you...

But some truths are better kept hidden...

This isn't my ego, 

But my wish to hide my tears...

I write, I write my feels...

Not for you, but to be honest to myself...

What I can't speak out,

When I'm with you...

I'm careless, 

But I do care...

You eyes may become wet,

But I cry, may be not visible to the world...

Touch, your touch...

Doesn't make me go mad,

But makes me feel not alone...

Makes me feel a promise of being forever...

I may behave in a weird way...

I may shout...I may scold...

But my lil heart, 

Only awaits your care'n'attention...

I may roam around...

Loads of people in my life to think of...

But when I'm with you,

I don't feel the need of the rest...

My past, My future...

I'm completely unknown to both...

But, I can promise to share the present...

Share my present only with you...

My faults, My nistakes...

I want only you to rectify the two...

Your presence I need...

Your attention I need to replenish once again...

My words might not work...

They might not be enough...

In making my heart open...

But baby, 

This truth can never change...

You steal my heartbeat...!!!

We are trying...

Fags in hand, smokes in air, 

burning ourselves n you as well, 

raising voices n putting statuses, 

we are trying…

Pegs in large, cheering to all, 

drowning in bitter ocean, 

coaxing n cajoling all, 

we are trying…

Dust in heart, spitting all around, 

enjoying our deeds in a nasty way, 

blaming all n sundry, 

but we are trying…

Politician in all, corrupt mind we have, 

here wise n honest becomes stupid, 

readymade excuses we all do have, 

we are still trying… 

No one knows the culprit, 

blind eyes in us, blind truth we unfold, 

evil reality we all fear to unleash, 

no feelings n no humanity, 

we all do expect you to come front, 

are we really trying...?

Errors in a relationship !!!

We all have come across several relationships in our life and the countdown is still going on. Some were long term, some were short. Even some were as short as mere one or two days. But one thing that was common in all these relationships was your expectations and demands towards the person sitting on the other side of the table. You may accept or deny it, but the truth won’t change as the person within you knows what actually the fact is. That person always expects something or the other from those involved in a relationship with you.

But as we all have entered into the modern era, the period where everybody tries to keep themselves busy with every other thing, shows less emotions and more practicality, things have changed a bit as per the outer look of yours is considered. But mark my words; things haven’t changed with the person within you. He is still the same and fears to change according to the time.

Those who are so called *Cool* persons, generally say that they do not expect or demand anything from their partners. They are just too cool to bother anything like this. They say they are ok with anything their partner does or say.  But I must say that the fact/truth is something else. They may show these weird kinda activities but their inner soul (which they pretend to be absent) knows what they actually feel.

Now, as we proceed in a relationship, we really don’t have a proper estimate of its longevity. But believe it or not we do have some expectations attached with it from the very start. Needless to mention, as we start knowing the other person we tend towards knowing more and more. At first, we always look out for the positive points bunking the ones which doesn’t go according to our mentality. That doesn’t mean we forget their negative traits, we do keep them in our mind and our heart does start expecting that very soon they are going to change as per our wishes.

These two stuffs are really unavoidable when you’re in a proper relationship, be it lover’s relationship or just a friendship. You just can’t ignore these facts. You expect him/her to talk to you, to go out with you, share your extremities (both happiness and sorrows), ask you about your well being, take good care of yours at times and so on. You demand time and presence from him/her.

This isn’t bad when kept within certain limits. But it starts hurting rather killing you from inside when it crosses its limit. Then on it will only give you pain when your wish isn’t fulfilled. You expect something and some other things take place. You see your partner doing stuffs that wasn’t planned by you. Up to a certain extent you will be able to cope up, but then after that your heart can break down into pieces.

 Your ego will prevent you from asking your partner, it will also prevent you from sharing your expectations to him/her. From then on, you won’t be able to stay like you used to be. You will fear to expect anything, but you will. Your heart won’t be under your control. But yes, your demands will get lessened. You won’t speak out your feelings, but your eyes will. And trust me; you will die every day from within.

Suppose one day our partner makes us very happy by doing some really great stuff, from the very next moment we start expecting that he/she will do the same every now and then. We forget that he/she did it out of his/her wish. It was simple love, and we should better not make it a duty for him/her.

There are also times when we badly expect our partner to stay with us or we expect time, be it physically or in the virtual world (Internet and Mobile). It may happen that yesterday they were with us in such period, but today they aren’t. Without getting hurt with this, we should better think of their situation and circumstance. Not being selfish, we should also care about their life. There may be some problem/work which requires more importance than our present scenario.

So expectations and demands are bound to occur when in a relationship, but only up to a certain extent they should be welcomed. Only a good understanding and trust between you and your partner can fight these issues well. Just enjoy the surprises and don’t think about their repetitions. Errors are meant to get ridden off with proper programming, right?

 Be well and keep well…!!! J

Human emotions – A stimulus

Blinking, we can never get ourselves free from this natural instinct. Unknowingly we do love to shut our lids, we like to rub them and yes, we do like to take a nap. Apart from these, we do close our eyes during high emotional moments. Some might notice it, some might not have bothered to care about it, but the fact is like giving a response to some stimuli, we all express our inner feelings to our very own self at first.

Its human nature, that one loves to express his/her happiness, sorrow, pain or any other feeling to oneself at the very first place. He does this by closing his eyes. While he closes his eyes, he gets this feeling of isolation. He feels that no one in this entire planet is able to notice him, his hidden grieves or emotions. He can thereby share his own sentiments and feelings to himself without being intervened by someone.

When in fear he closes his eyes, he thinks that the danger has got over. No one can harm him as nobody can watch him. In this case, he is actually telling his heart his story of fear. He is sharing it with himself. And this act slowly diminishes his fear and makes him stand up again.

When in distress he closes his eyes, he thinks that the act which made him sad is just not real. He starts imagining the reality as a dream. As nobody can see him in this state of mind, he feels damn free to rejuvenate himself. He silently shed tears while sharing his piece of story to his heart. And after sometime he feels so light and painless that he opens himself up in front of his closed ones and then on he is ready to move on with a smile on.

Again when in deep pain he closes his eyes, he thinks of his loved ones who may not be present with them but if would have been there with him, could have taken a good care of his. He just needs their words of care, touch of love and the feeling of being loved and cared. He shares his pain to his heart while closing his eyes, and after some moments he gets back to normal. Even though his pain may not have got lessen, but now as he has shared his pain to his heart, he knows how to withstand it.

Now these above circumstances were all related to sorrows and grieve. Now he, the human, also does the same sort of activities even when in extreme happiness.

When in love he closes his eyes, he thinks of his lover. He imagines himself along with his lover in a complete wonderland where there is only the two enjoying their cozy moments with each other. No rules and restrictions are there to prevent them from expressing their love for each other. Even while sharing his love story rather his true love feelings for her, he tells his heart even those things which he badly wants to express to his lover but just couldn’t make it possible. So while sharing this to his own heart he feel relaxed as someone other than his mind knows his actual condition.

And lastly when in super happy mode he closes his eyes, he thinks of the entire world happily singings songs and cherishing his joy. He may not have let anyone know about his happiness, but he just can’t stop sharing this to his heart. He let every single reason of his happiness get known to his heart and soul. He points towards reliving each and every moment so that even in distress, he never feels detached from joy.

There are many more situations when we do share our thoughts and feelings to our very own heart by just closing our mere eyes. We all like to hide ourselves from the entire world in any extreme emotional moment that we come across, but we rarely do notice it.

Your heart shares your part of story because it does care.

Love vs Infatuation

Due to a special request from someone close to my heart I’ve written this piece of comparison between love and infatuation. We come across them at a daily basis. Some love their friends, girl/boyfriends and others whereas some get themselves busy in infatuating certain people around them.

Well the following eleven points just came up in my mind while thinking about this topic. I’m obvious that these points are bound to create controversies and I’m definitely not correct with most of my points. This is just what I felt, do forgive my mistakes.

1. You will love to love your lover even if he/she breaks your heart but in case of infatuation you will fear to fall again.
2. Your love becomes the sole reason of your day long smile but when its infatuation, you believe in day dreaming rather imagining loads of realistic things.
3. Love can't happen with a mere glance of him/her, but with a single chat session infatuation may happen.
4. Love needs time to grow, the more you get to know your partner the more chances to fall in love with him/her, whereas infatuation works way faster than love.
5. Love is never volatile, but infatuation is very much volatile in most of the cases.
6. Love is unconditional; you don't expect your partner to work in accordance to your wish. but when its infatuation, as the day passes you discover your desire in changing some features of your partner.
7. Your love for someone can never be described in words, but the love that can be explained on papers is known as infatuation.
8. Love needs no qualities, it just happens but in case of infatuation there must be something that attracts you towards your partner that may be display features, charm etc.
9. When you love someone truly, misunderstandings are bound to happen. You're bound to feel lost, unattended and all and you feel free to share them all. But when in infatuation, even if you get hurt badly, you don't let him/her know about your feelings coz you fear to lose him/her.
10. When its love, you don't need to talk/meet all day long to maintain your feelings. Even if you don't share the same city, your feelings aren’t going to diminish. But in case of infatuation, even a small gap of communication can lead to separation.
11. You are bound to lose your heart in love, but in infatuation, you will definitely lose your mind.

These all are craps, bunk my mistakes. :P

But yeah, do give these points a chance of becoming a thought in your mind. :-)

Love ya all… J