Get Set Free

I want to be free, free from every boundaries, limitations and responsibilities. My friends like my parents keep annoying me by saying the same shitty thing, “go get one job and become serious in life”. What the hell!!! I say to myself, “come on guys, grow up!”. Isn’t it boring to be in a routine, prescheduled job?  Do you want yourself to get involved in such a place where everybody performs more or less same task each and every day, obeys rubbish orders of their respective bosses and at the end of the day they are left with few hours of leisure time which one always spent in taking rest.

Our college life has just got over, who knows what’s going to happen next. We must enjoy this time to the fullest as we get only one life and one opportunity to celebrate it. If we waste this chance by being serious and sophisticated then we are going to miss a hell lot of things in life. Just think ahead of jobs, responsibilities, work related loads and pressure. We must enjoy and cherish each and every moment of our life. Who knows what’s going to happen tomorrow.

Right now I have many wishes, dreams and thoughts about my present life. But I don’t want to achieve them all alone. I want my dear ones to be with me, to share my happiness. I just want time from them. I want them to get themselves free from every societal burden. You guys need to think about yourself, think about different ways to enjoy your life. After few years you may not even get the time to call someone and ask about his/her day. You may not get time for your family also. Who knows you may get a call from your best friend tomorrow, but you may not even have the time to pick that call up.

So all of you just take a leave from your everyday schedule and have a blast with your dear ones. Go have a beach party, dance weirdly in any weird track, desire strange things and go achieve them, have your wildest dream get fulfilled, go fill up your life with all mischievous elements. You won’t regret these things rather I’m sure you will cherish these moments throughout your life. Set yourself free, lead a irresponsible life, be casual, forget your worries, get naked and dance. Fill your life with shocks and surprises.

Remember one thing; we get one opportunity to celebrate one life till our lifetime. We are solely responsible for where and how we lead it to. So don’t get motivated, just follow what your heart says and one day you will surely reach your destined destination. Don’t worry about future, dream your present and fulfill it.

I can bring back your smile

Today Sun forgot to shine, sky forgot its blue. Rains forgot to pause and you forgot to smile. I’m sitting under this mighty sky and thinking of your bright smile. You are feeling numb, betrayed and lonely. But hey, don’t forget to count me, I’m your dear.  I’m the person who is just waiting to get a glimpse of your shiny smile, your jolly eyes and your mesmerizing sight. I just want to get glued to your presence, want myself to feel your presence till my last breathe. Don’t disappoint me with your yet sad look. I know I can’t be with you forever, but I can promise you my company whenever possible. I know I can’t talk to you all the time. But I can promise you my voice whenever possible.

To make you smile, I can’t do everything like others say they can. But yes, I can be whatever you would like me to be, I can do whatever you would like me to do. I can’t bring you stars, I can’t bring you gifts. But yes, I can bring back your happiness; I can bring back your smile. I can make you laugh; I can make you feel good.  At times, when there will be no one with you, I will be there waiting to get your attention sitting beside you. I’ll not demand anything, neither will I expect anything. But yes, I will hope that one day I could win your heart by just saying, “I care”. 

 Whenever you tell me that there is no one who cares for you, who loves you unconditionally, who bothers about your sentiments, I somehow control myself from replying you with my name. I feel like telling you that yes, there is one person in this planet who will always care for you, who will always love you, and who will always bother about your each and every sentiment. But every time I fail in expressing myself. I just can’t open my heart when you are in front of me.

You say that I’m not like others, I’m introvert, I don’t like to talk much. But have you ever thought why I speak so weird things and chat about strange elements of life with you. With you in my mind, I can’t think straight, my heart get so much shivered that I often forget to ask you about your day. I just love to listen whenever you talk. Your voice, even your replies touch the most delicate string of my heart.

Dear, keep one thing in your mind that I’ll be always there for you, praying just for your happiness. I can’t assure you about my fate but one thing I can truly say, “I can bring back your smile”.

Random thoughts - II

While sitting on a chair in the balcony under the full moon, a simple question strokes my mind. Is expecting “time” from your beloved ones wrong? The simple one word answer to this question would always be “no”. But this is not the one I want to hear.

Expecting time means expecting to spend a quality time, share a heartfelt conversation, sharing happiness as well as sadness. Expecting time means expecting to share a part of their respective lifes with each other, showing the importance of one person in another person’s life.

Sometimes it happens that the one whom you consider to be your loved one or your best friend don’t consider you the same. It hurts! But we need to be practical as there’s no such prerequisite conditions in friendship. One has his own choices and feelings. Someone once said to me, “You must keep one thing in mind from the very first day that friendship is not a give ‘n’ take relationship. You should not expect any customized responses from anyone. Let them be what they prefer to be”. At that point of time I didn’t really understood his saying, but now I can understand or rather feel what he wanted to convey. You must love your friends the way they are, not the way you want them to be. Otherwise it won’t be called a friendship rather it will be known as adjustment between you two.

But at the same time you must inform your friend about your feelings, about your desires and then if he/she does make any changes in themselves then it’s perfectly fine. That means your friend considers you an integral part of their life and wants you to be happy. Communication is the best solution to any misunderstanding or any other problem in a relationship. But you should never superimpose your desires on anyone; let them perform actions according to their wish.

So expecting “time” from your friend is not wrong. But you have to understand their situations if they don’t stand up to your expectations. “Time” is not the ultimate measure for your friendship. Problems are many but solutions are few. Search them until you succeed. So don’t give up, a ray of hope will rise in the next morning. Till then have a good night.

A night with my past...

It’s an open roof…moonlit night…fresh air blowing past my shoulder…caressing my hair and informing me about their presence. Cold breeze flowing their way…pin drop silence everywhere letting me listen to my own breathes. Stars twinkling at their best across the dark sheet of sky…watching those tiny diamonds above, anyone can lose themselves in to the thoughts of their beloved memories….

So did I…I’m lost…

I’m lost among my dreams…I’m lost in the world of love…the world of my childhood…where I was the ruler of my kingdom…where I was the owner of my thoughts…

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Hey, I can see myself running in the playground with all my childhood friends around…I’m playing, dancing, singing and enjoying my day to the fullest…What a bright sunny morning it is!! Uncle Sun is showering his blessings to us kids. But without noticing any of the activities going around us, I see myself busy in playing with my pals.

Now I can see myself sitting at the old classroom of ours, wearing the same old navy blue trouser and a white shirt above it. Oh!! I’m feeling nostalgic. By the way what am I doing now? I’m drawing a picture at the back of my small copy and simultaneously gossiping and laughing with my classmates. It’s a picture of a guy. Hey!! This is the same guy who is currently taking the class…<laughing> Strangely I’m surprised watching what activities are going on in the class…papers are being wasted a lot in schools…I get to know this now only.

It’s lunch time now, but why my Tiffin box is empty? Oh, I forgot to mention, I have eaten up my food before the designated time. I and my friends have already started playing now. How much notorious I was during my childhood…phew!! How did my parents handled me…How did they brought me up till this point of time….along with these many other questions kept striking my mind, but I couldn’t find any appropriate answer to them.

Finally today’s last period got over, and now I can see myself coming out of the school campus with a face having no place for tiredness on it, but with a huge joy of achievement. I may haven’t understood what I have achieved during that period of my childhood, but now I really feel proud of the glorious memories of my school days which I achieved along with my fellow friends.

Hey, how did that bright afternoon filled with joy and contentment turned in to a lonely night at the rooftop?? Oh!!! I came back to reality which I think I didn’t really wish to. Dreams are so good to see, good to feel, yet hard to achieve. And when your precious dreams get break, as they say every action has equal and opposite reaction, a crystal like tiny drop of tear falls down your eyes, making your present “wet”.

“Jio, khush raho, muskuraao, kya pata kal ho na ho” – a line from the movie, “Kal Ho Na Ho”, which I follow in my real life. That is, be happy, smile, spread happiness, live everyday as if it’s your last.

Random thoughts - I

"Team Work" - as the name suggests, is the job performed by a team...

Now, what does a team mean to you? Is it a group of few people? or Is it a combo of like minded ones? Actually this term has several descriptions but with same moral in several fields. For the time being lets assume the team in an organization. Here this team consists of few people belonging from the same working sector. Their ultimate goal is to perform up to level of quality which the company desires. Now, this team, keeping this aim in mind, tries to work together making adjustment up to a certain level. 

Now, assume a team in some sports area. This team has a lot of responsibilities on their shoulders. If they couldn't match up with the requirements to build up a well performing team, their game may go out of hand. Thus, there also comes the same situation of forming a good co-operating as well as performing team.

Lastly take the example of a team whose aim is to set up an independent business firm. They have to form a team which can deliver what is necessary for their growth. 

So in every field, in every sector of life, their comes a situation when we all need to configure a proper team to survive prosperously as well as successfully. And the build team somewhat guides our destiny towards respective goals.

So, we should better not blame our destiny for undesirable results, rather we should have a check with the team which led us to that situation. Similarly we should never blame other members of the team for undesirable productivity, rather we should try to figure out the flaws which we had while working jointly.  

Good-bye thoughts...

We all have experienced few situations in life where we have to leave something or someone forever which we never intended to. These circumstances often occur with a short notice beforehand. But the biggest shock we get is when these things take place without any info of occurrence. Such thing happened in my present life.

I knew that my college life is going to end in a short while. Not much time is left for me to enjoy with them. But still I don’t know why I’m experiencing this strange painful feeling within myself from past few days. I started taking precautions from last one month. Indulged myself in different activities, detached myself from quite a lot pals. I thought I will bring myself out of these emotional attachments successfully. But still somewhere inside myself, I lost…yess, I lost!!!

I lost to the world of emotions…I lost to the world of sentiments…

It was stupidity for me to think that this childish, immature, emotional and idiot ‘Raj’ can avoid being sad and sentimental while leaving his precious friends and attachments behind. It’s a common feeling every single student feels while facing this kind of situation and I’m a common student only with common yet so ‘different’ feeling inside.

My college, Bengal College of Engineering and Technology, is a great college. I know it’s quite a funny sentence for my college mates and believe me I’m also laughing while typing this. But to be frank, this college has given us everything. It has made a man out of a kid. It has witnessed numerous fights and bonding. From silly strikes to campusing, from semester exams to college events, we all have enjoyed each and everything at fullest.

From where I see myself now, I can point out numerous changes in me. When I entered this college for the first time, I was a guy without any knowledge about the practicality of life. I was more of someone who thinks that what he is and what he feels is same for every other person in the world. But thanks to some of my friends who helped me learn a different lesson of life here. Life is not as easier as you think it is. Maturity comes with time and experience. I learnt this!!!

From dark side to the brighter one, I have experienced quite a lot thing in these four small years. From casual easy-going boy to properly oriented man, the journey was not as easy as you are thinking. But it was quite interesting one.

But what’s strange is I was leading a normal life but suddenly few days back a stream of mixed feelings hit my mind as well as heart informing me about the present scenario of my life. My college life is going to end!!! I simply can’t imagine me not returning to this place again….Can’t imagine that there won’t be this hostel to return to…It’s just came so suddenly…wish it had came a year later or so…

But as time never stops for anyone, why should we let our heart stop for these matters? I have got enough from this college. I have found many great friends here; hope they stay in my life forever…

So it’s time for me to say ‘GOOD-BYE’ to my dear college…will MISS my COLLEGE Days…simply a LOT!!!

Wake up thoughts...

Good morning friend...your soul speaks to you.
A new morning has arrived with loads of surprises beneath it which can make you wander whole day long. Still you woke up keeping in mind that all the negative energies that had been troubling you these days will be lost somewhere in the midst of the day. 
The very first thought that strikes into your yet unconscious mind is about the sleep you had last night. How was it? Was it a proper and complete one? Whether a second nap is needed? You then witness the fight between your passiveness and activeness. In this particular fight no one can ever guess who the winner will be. 
Along with these thinkings there's one common thought that everybody has in the morning is about the nature of day they are going to face. Yesterday's activities affects a lot on today's morning thoughts. It has the ability to directs your brain towards positive as well as negative directions. You will be eventually guided towards a good or a bad morning. 
Expectations gets started taking place in your tiny hidden part under your scalp. Planning for the day ahead, how you want the day to arrive, how you would like to face them and lots of exclamatory questions do arrive. 
We all have these certain thoughts in our unconscious mind during the wake up time, but do we ever recall them throughout the day? No. These things get lost somewhere in the middle of the daily activities.